Herro,
Hope everyone had a good 3 day weekend and took a few moments out to celebrate WHY we had a 3 day weekend. MLK day. I wish there were more days where we could celebrate the accomplishments and lives of influential black people. There should be a Harriet Tubman day or a Sojourner Truth day or a Cinque day! But alas, we must celebrate this people daily even if it isn't commercialized. Recently I saw a video of MLK but not one of him making any influential speeches. He was just being Martin, making jokes and showing that he has many faces to him. It was really refreshing. I love seeing pictures of him just having fun. I also really love the sound of his voice. Idk it's so soothing to me. If I had been his kid I would've BEGGED for him to read me a bedtime story even if it was like, 4 in the afternoon, srsly. I wanna make sure my son knows who MLK was and many other influential people.

I think in this day and age we tend to forget how much these people sacrificed so that we could get to where we are. To a certain extent we have fulfilled some of his vision (and many others) but we still have a long road ahead of us! Racism is definitely still here and just because people aren't getting sprayed with water hoses or being told to sit in the back of the bus doesn't mean that people aren't still filled with hatred and prejudice. It's sad and it's scary for me even more so now because I'm bringin my son into this. But, I will do my very best to teach him and guide him. Awareness is key. That goes for all children. I see so many kids and their parents are just idiots.

For example many mornings I eat breakfast and see this chick. For some reason her hair is always done but her daughter always looks like shyt. Um, no, bitch your kid should always come first. Id rather look like shyt than have my baby look like no. Then on top of that this bitch is wearing headphones while her and her daughter are eating! Are you 12? THEN this chickenhead starts rappin all this hardcore shyt to her daughter. In my head I'm like, "THIS bitch..." I HATE parents like that. I have literally been taking mental notes of the parent I DON'T want to be.

My child WILL stay lookin' fresh at all times. He is #1 and forget about anyone else. He WILL be disciplined accordingly and he will most certainly know his place (I'm sorry but there are too many kids out here talkin wreckless and that is just unacceptable behavior). I will make sure that he is aware of who he is and that he isn't "better" than anyone else because of his skin tone, physical features or anything else but I will make sure that he knows he's special for more concrete reasons.

Hi guys,
Hope everyone's week is going well! So, my baby showers are rapidly approaching. One of my very best friends is throwing me one in Maine and the theme of it is going to be the movie "Waitress" which involves cuteness, pregnancy and my favorite: PIE! Her and her amazing mother have planned this extravaganza and they're even making me a waitress apron which is extra exciting! This will take place in march so I could possibly be as big as a house by then hahah! Right now though I literally have at least one person comment on how "tiny" I am EVERYDAY! It's ok I guess but 1. It's the equivalent of people constantly rubbin my belly whenever they feel like it and/or 2. People probably assume I party a little too hard and now have a major pooch/gut. But in the long run I'm def happy I haven't blown up like a beached whale as well as knowing that my son is growing at the rate he's supposed to be. Baller.

So this morning I read yesterday's horoscope. I thought i'd share: Aries Jan 11 2012
You are standing on the precipice of a big change, Aries. You are not afraid of change, but you could be a bit nervous about where this new path will lead you. You know it's time to move beyond what you have accepted in your life - you want more for yourself and for your loved ones too. You could be apprehensive because you may have had more than your fair share of difficulties toward the end of 2011. But your outlook is far better than you realize. Embrace the changes you face, because they will bring you to a happier, more stable place.
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Fuckin NUTS because yesterday I definitely got a call from my case worker informing me that my housing voucher is ready for pick up and that I will be in an apartment by next month! Just in time for my Boston baby shower which is going to be so exciting because 1. Kollin and his family will be meeting my family for the first time 2. Wendy (my stepmom) is an amazing party planner 3. Ill be surrounded by awesome people anddd I get to wear this new bubble skirt I got for cheapy cheap at my favoritest store in Maine called "Marden's". P sure everyone should go there at least once in their life jussayin.

I've been thinking about all the things I want in my apt and all the images I wanna surround my baby with. First things first, I will definitely have a picture of Princess Diana and Lucille Ball in my house. But I would also like some beautiful images of Costa Rica, influential black figures, native american figures etc. I just remember being a little kid and seeing all the awesome pictures my dad had on the wall. I loved that and the smell of incense constatly burning (his hippie genes have mos def been passed down).

This week two friends of mine had their baby (as well as Beyonce hahah) and so I'm getting even morrrre excited for my BamBam! He's been givin me crazy heartburn and I finally realized that he clearly doesn't approve of anything with marinara in it (which is fine with me). This morning I was thinking about how much family he's gonna have. Even though my biological mom isn't here (I think about that often especially now that I'm having my first child which is a boy which is what she first had) I have three wonderful mother figures who love me and that is such a blessing. I have Wendy my step mom, Susan my adopted mom and Eloisa my west coast mom...beautiful, strong and influential women who have shaped me into the person I am today and I'm soooo excited for my son to meet them. All his friends will be jealous cuz he has FOUR (including kollin's mom) instead of 2 :-)! Also all his aunts and uncles! Like, my best friend Jovy (Eloisa's son). He's great with kids and I know he'll be baller with mine.

Oh, so yesterday my adorable friend Courtney showed me a letter she got from her adorable boyfriend Andrew which said "tell Imani good luck with her baby!" Cutest thing EVER! I died.

Well, today is the day I pick up my voucher and get all the info I need to finally get my apt. I've whittled it down to two different ones close to my parentals because I'm not ashamed to say that I enjoy living close to them especially because I spent almost 3 years away. I cherish that shyt! Both places have a pool and a gym. I don't really care about that but it's mos def a plus. The rooms are big and the kitchens are spacious and I'm all for that! Also now two of my bffs Alfine and Jill can now come visit! Alfine is bam's godmother who lives in Maine. Jill lives in Va and I'm her son tucker's godmother.  We haven't seen eachother in over 2 years and therefore I have never physically held Tucky :-( but that's allll about to change. I will probably weep with joy upon seeing her beautiful freckled face hahah!

As always, here's some pics. The first one is of my Jilleesa and her baller freckles (I miss her so much). The second one is of adorable tucker. I can't wait to squeeze his cheeks and love him up.

Have a great day all
Ciao ciao,
Imani

2012

Well, 2012 has finally approached! So I'm sure there's tons of people who have new years resolution that probably won't last past January haha! I think this year is going to be full of excitement and new opportunities! Man, I'm going to have a son pretty soon (dauntinnnnng). My friend is already 8 1/2 months and it seems like just yesterday Tom told me that she was pregnant! I'm already six months! Aaah! So nuts.

Anywho, I have a new obsession which is nail polish specifically OPI (they just have sooo many colors!) and just last week I learned how to "marble" nails. So of course I went on this rampage trying to perfect it. The thing about this technique is that every finger is like a snowflake and you will never have two fingers that are alike (besides color). I personally think there's pros and cons to that. A pro being that every finger is different and it's always interesting to see what design will manifest itself on your finger. The con being every finger is different and you may REALLY like one specific finger but you'll never be able to duplicate it (unless you're super good...which is not me haha). As I'm going along I'm learning different tips and tricks. For example, use room temp or cold water for dipping. Put vaseline or an oil base around your fingernail making sure not to get any on the actual fingernail. You have to make the bullseye pattern with at least 5 or 6 rings or you won't see shyt (learned that the hard way). You must be expeditious while doin the whole thing or the polish will dry and then you can't make a design and then you've defeated the whole purpose of the whole thing. And lastly I think it's best to use 2-3 colors. I just redid my nails and I used gray, lavenderr, silver and turquoise and I just wasn't pleased with the overrall outcome. It just looks sloppy to me. From now on 3 colors is my limit.  The first 3 pics are of good examples, id say one being of the first marbling I ever had done. The second is one I did on Friday and the other is of my friend Tinas that I did for her for new year's (she had a red and black outfit). I wish I had photographed the one I did for my sister this weekend but ah, such is life. The last one is slop city...definitely redoing them tomorrow. Hopefully it will be exponentially better.

This weekend I went back to the 207 (for all that are confused that's Maine's area code. Yes, we only have one). I spent a lot of time with my sister and my nephew which was really great because...well, it just is! I just love being around them and just hangin out. That's exactly what I did for new year's too, hung out. I didn't even stay awake for the ball to drop! I guess it didn't really matter either cuz Kollin isn't even here. I wish we could have spent new year's together but that's life, right? I still had fun in my own pregnant way haha!

I also got to see my best friend of 13 years (fuckin nuts, I still can't believe that shyt) and my son's godmother. She made me this spectacular carrot ginger soup and we watched youtube videos and looked at pretentious baby blogs as well as the cute hipster ones. As I was heading out her parents were coming in! I was hoping to see them since I haven't seen them in YEARS! Her mom is a freakin riot! I call her the queen because if you knew her you'd be like, "YES!" She's so outspoken and her accent makes it even better. She told me that labor/delivery is easy...if you can shyt you can deliver a baby so there is no need to fear! It's crazy to see Alfine (my best friend) in comparison to her parents. So different, it's wild! But always makes for good stories at the end of the day. It was really good to see her. She always looks so fabulous but it always looks so effortless. And I'm like "gaaaah she's so fab!" I always feel like a bumbum. But here's some crazy shyt...she looks at ME that way! Always being like, "oh I wish I could've gotten my Imani courage" and I'm always taken aback since I always feel awkward, shy, anxious etc. I guess I put up a good front but it's crazy how we view eachother after so many years of being best friends. It's also crazy how we've maintained such a strong bond despite our distance. I knew as soon as I found out that I was pregnant that without a doubt she'd be the godmother. Heck YES id leave my baby with her if it came down to it. I know that he'd grow up to be an upstanding human being cuz I have learned sososo much from her and at times am like "omg why can't I be like her!" I bet if she read this she'd be like, "what!? Shutup! I'm not even like that!" What's awesome about her is that she has no idea how awesome she is and also how much her presence has impacted my life in such a tremendously awesome way. I feel as though I owe her so much and honestly I'm super pumped that my son will have her as his godmother! Eeeep! Just thinkin about it gets me so excited haha!

I'm a little vexed because my darling son is giving me heartburn right now so I truly hope that the old wives tale is right and that he will have a headful of hair! He better be the male rapunzel, srsly. I hope he has a big curly fro that would make me so happy. Truly I don't care what kind of anything he has. I'm just dying to meet him and see what he's like. I do know that I'm obsessed with him already and I hope that he will love me just as much (think Gemma Teller and Jax from Sons Of Anarchy). I'm also super pumped to dress him in cute stuff like baby supras, sweater vests, fitted jeans and cardigans etc. So many awesome things in store! I feel like we're gonna have tons of cool adventures and see the world together! Actually I KNOW that's gonna happen:-)!

Anywho, it's late, I have school and I'm sure I'll regret my nightowlery (yep, just made that up) tomorrow morning.

Ps I kind of got sidetracked looking at that website earlier in this post. First of all, the girl has the "rainbow connection" muppets color that I so thoroughly desire. Second, she has a nail polish collection that is absolutely to die for! So jeal. I love love love cosmetic collections like that. If you guys get the chance check that shyt out! Pretty epic...it got me excited that for sure!

Hi everyone,
Hope y'all had a good Christmas and Santa or whoever hooks it up for the holidays got you everything you little hearts desire! My apologies for slacking on my bloggery duties. I have been so freakin exhausted and doing a million things at once it seems like.

I'm planning my long awaited and anticipated trip to Mother Maine. I'm trying to squeeze everyone in as much as I can. I wish there could be more hours in the day! I'm very excited to see my son's godfather Vano who I haven't seen in over a year (way too long), one of my best friends Hannah, my son's godmother/and bestest friend of almost 13 years (fuckin nuts, saying/writing that still gets to me ha), her fam and last but not least my beautiful older sister and nephew. I know there's other wonderful people I'll be seeing as well but if I don't I will most certainly see them the next time!

So yesterday after playing hookie from school on Monday Mr. Gavann came back and he's been teaching us makeup application which has been sooo much fun! So yesterday I asked him what kind of look I can do for the pictures I plan on taking in February. I think every girl should get maternity pics done. Idk about some people but I feel beautiful being this way especially knowing there's life inside of me. That makes it even more awesome. Mr. G also did my adorable friend Courtney. She's so cute and what makes her even cuter is that she thinks everyone else is so cute!!! I love her. She seriously makes me laugh every single day.

In other news, it's freezing here. I guess I don't have much room to complain considering that it IS almost January and there has been no sign of snow. I suppose I can manage haha! Weird winter smh...

I've also made an executive decision to not have a homebirth because of financial reasons (3500 buckaroonies is a lot of cash, cash that I could use for other things like a mamaroo!!!). I have a bad habit of stressing about things and the homebirth was definitely something I was constantly stressing over which completely defeats the whole purpose. As much as I don't really want to go to a hospital I have found a few in my area that do respect my right to go natural as well as having different tools to achieve that goal. Newton Wellsley is one of them. I'm really looking at that one.

The problem is...I've switched doctors twice already! Tomorrow I will be grilling my doctor about midwives because that's something I won't give up! But I want a good one. Not a shitty one like the idiot at Boston Medical Ctr. I also am going to write out a VERY detailed birthing plan so these mofos know that I mean freakin business and that I want to have as much freedom as possible when it comes to the birthing process/experience. I have high hopes for it and am still excited. I can still have a water birth and do most of the things I want to do. What it really boils down to is that I just want my kid to be born healthy and spry (hahah I love that word). I think that's reasonable, don't you think?

And in conclusionnnn, I have FINALLY completed my "very hungry caterpillar" cocoon for BamBam and I am very pleased with it. I can't wait to put him in it and see his little face peeking out of it! Maybe we'll even get pics of him in. Either that or those adorable little elf hats (which I definitely will be making myself that's for sure) I see in pictures. I think it all depends on what he looks like (I mainly base all of my decisions on that...his name, his first pictures, his "color" for clothes...everyone has a power color hehe)

Ok lovers, until next time Ciao Ciao!

(Ps I made that scarf in those pictures. I've decided I'm going to give them all names depending on what comes to mind when I see them. So for example, that particular scarf is called the "barbie scarf" Remember that shade of pink back in the 90's when Mattel ruled the world!?)

::sings Charlie Brown:: Christmas Time is herrrre (almost)

Wow! It's crazy how fast time has flew by! Sorry for not writing for the past few days. On Wednesday I had some cheap chinese food (mah fave) and definitely got food poisoning. So the next day I went to the hospital just as a precaution since I do have a little bun in the oven. They confirmed my suspicions and I was hooked up to IV fluids for the better part of a day! Let me just say that although I highly dislike hospitals I would like to give a special shoutout to St. Elizabeth's hospital in Brighton. They're fast, efficient and sosososo nice! I was hooked up to a monitor to make sure BamBam was ok. I was actually thrilled to hear him prancing around and being wreckless because that confirmed to me that cheap chinese food can't hold him down! My sweet boy. Gosh, I am sososo anxious to meet him. I can't wait to see what he looks like, how he acts and everything in between. I hope he'll like his "Eric Carle" room haha!

So Christmas is tomorrow. I haven't bought anything not like last year. This is my year of transition so I've basically found other ways to give back to the ones I love. For my dad, well, he's getting a grandson who will call him "peepaw" and who will replace (yes, I said it) my 14 yr old brother who has decided that he'd rather chill with these young trickedy tricks than be with family (don't even get me started...aries/libra brawl last week nooooo bueno). Now my dad will have full access to a little boy who will appreciate the awesomeness that is Fred O. Brown (I'm obsessed with my dad and I am not ashamed). For Wendy I'm going to utilize the skill that I learned this week which is: facial massages! I got all these awesome creams and stuff so I think she'll be excited! Last week, i dyed my baby sister's hair and did it for her and just spent all my time with her. It meant the world to me to see her smile and be so appreciative. An angel, really. Last but not least, my little baby lover Shauna (my evil twin...she makes me so mad but I think it's most likely because she's exactly like meeee ahhhhhhhh). Yesterday I found her a celtics robe! Jealous they didn't have my size but all she's been asking for for xmas is Boston sports stuff (that's mah girl! She's gonna be a great Tia) and I can already see the glee on her face once she gets her presents (hint: Jerard Mayo signed a pats jersey for her...she always gets the cool shyt!) I guess another reason why I'm not really caring about presents is because 1. Being with my family this year is way more precious than any gift I could receive (besides having my Bam but, he needs to cook a lil longer hehe). 2. I've been blessed with SO much these past couple of months. I'm STILL in shock and awe, seriously.

Today, I woke up feeling a little bit down. Initially I couldn't place my finger on it but I think it has to do with the fact that I miss Kollin (my BD). I wish we could be closer for the holidays. I definitely miss the mornings of waking up next to him (sometimes with his glasses still on his face) and him wrapping himself around me since I'm always cold and he's always hot (I feel like some white people have different internal temperature gauges because this guy can go out with shorts and tee in 40 degree weather like it's the summer and if I turn on the heat he acts like we're chillin in Hell). My ultimate christmas wish is just for us to find our middle ground, to grow continuously and be the absolute best parents for this amazing gift we've been given.

I really believe that our son is my personal lifesaver. He's not even here yet but he's given me so much already! So my anticipation for him is literally bursting through the seams. 2011 in the navy for me was AWFUL! I was in such a low, dark and lonely place. I wasn't sure when or if or HOW id ever get out of it. From that I learned who my real friends were even if at the time I didn't wanna hear their positive affirmations or their words of concern. Three people who I definitely wanna shoutout are: my braintwin Yasmeen (my baby's Pappy), the adorable Paige aka Cloudy and my beautiful brother Anthony who were really really there for me even when I wasn't even there for myself (there were others who I appreciate just as much, believe me, but I spent A LOT of my time with these three). These three people made me really appreciate how blessed I am to have such thoughtful, caring and loving friends! I WISH that I could share my friends with everyone, seriously, that's how amazing I think they are.


I just wanna talk about Anthony for a moment. This guy literally EXUDES positivity and greatness so therefore if he's having a bad day you feel it and you automatically wanna make him happy again just to see his beautiful smile (and so that you can smile again too...it literally PAINS me to see him sad). He's not my REAL brother but he may as well be. I wish so badly that I could see him again and get a hug from him. He's really buff which makes his sweetness and charm THAT much more awesome (cuz he definitely has the strength to hulk smash ya!) I miss talking with Anthony face to face, singing and dancing with him too! Sometimes when I think about how long I've been away from him I get really sad but I gotta remember that everything happens for a reason and that I am out here now so that I can give Anthony the strength to continue doing what he's doing out at sea (he's on deployment right now...he was pretty bummed that I wasn't going to go but I have a bigger purpose and as the days go by that is getting clearer and clearer to me). When Anthony gets back he's going to be uber planning for a wedding to this BEAUTIFUL woman who I am so very anxious to meet named Melinda. Just seeing Ant's smile in their picture does my heart good because I know he has found his true happiness with her and that is all that I want for him. He deserves every good thing because that is all he has shown me and all he tries to show anyone else that crosses his path. He's the perfect man who deserves it all. Idc what anyone says! Haha! My son will be sososooso lucky to have him in his life.



Since we're talkin about awesome people I also just wanna talk about Yas. My "braintwin", my baby's Pappy, my muthafuckin rock of Gibraltar. She's tiny, yellow and from Killeen, TX. I remember when I first met her. I thought she was a few screws loose, not gonna lie. But as time went on we realized how identical we were to the point where it was scary. We definitely both have the same tattoos (i.e. a peacock on our right shoulder, musical notes on our waist). What are the odds of that considering we had never met before? We can finish each other's sentences, have full conversations without sayin one word. We met each other for reasons neither one of us can explain but the purpose is grand, that is a fact. I owe my life to that girl and I would lay down my life for her if that time were to ever come. You may wonder , "girl, why do you call her your baby's Pappy, don't you already have a babydaddy!?" Why, yes, yes I do have Kollin but there was a time when I wasn't 100% sure if I was supposed to be a mom right now. I had just gotten out of the Navy, Kollin had left, we had been at eachother's throats up until his departure, I had no job, no fuckin CLUE what direction I was going in in my life. I didn't think I was even pregnant! But that magical moment when I saw those two lines changed my life. Kollin wasn't on board with the thought of us bringing this child into the world (listen to Lost Ones by J. Cole...pretty much sums that up...I cried when I heard that song cuz it hit so close) but, a few years ago when I was 18 I had an abortion. Although I don't necessarily regret my decision I knew that I would NEVER do that again unless I had a valid reason and I definitely wasn't going to do it if it wasn't a decision that I made 100% on my own.
Many women deal with that type of loss differently. I personally, compartmentalized for a bit until one day while sitting in therapy I realized what I was doing and realized it was unhealthy and I needed to face it head on. It was difficult to say the least but it was most certainly a learning experience. Something I will never ever forget. I think about that baby sometimes especially now that Bam is growing inside of me and I hope that I will do it and him justice as a mother. I know my choice was right and I know that he's in a much better place than what I could've given at the time.
The first few weeks of this pregnancy I struggled. I battled my most inner demons and the one person that never left me to fight alone was my BT. I remember sitting in my car with her, me in the passenger seat and her with with the seat pushed alllll the way forward (since she's so little) and I just sobbed. My whole body was trembling with fear, frustration, confusion, you name it! SHE was the one that gave me the strength to open my eyes and realize no matter what the circumstances are that the life growing inside me was SUPPOSED to be there. And that if Kollin didn't want to be apart of this journey that she would gladly take on the responsibility of fatherhood as best she could. She continues to do so despite Kollin fully coming around and I will continue to let her share that responsibility with him because she has earned it. One day I will tell my son about his Pappy and how she saved his beautiful life because she saw things that I didn't see.
Hopefully one day her and Kollin will become friends (ongoing saga which still gives me heartache but gotta stay hopeful) and see how similar they are, how they can learn from one another and how they're equally important to the livelihood and happiness of our BamBam. My kid is gonna have a hugggge family. People already get confused with mine so, watch out world cuz I feel like once he's born I will have NOTHIN on him! Hella aunts and uncles, cousins etc. But, big families are the best families hehe :-)
Ok, so hopefully your thirst for my life's insights have been quenched. Pass the word on about my blog and don't forget to save your change to donate to "project homebirth", everyone! Every little bit helps! Merry ChristmaHanuKwanzakuh to you all, Ciao Ciao!

Baby bedding theme!

So whilst perusing the internets this morning I googled "very hungry caterpillar bedding" and found this !!!!!
I am SO excited. I have been brainstorming themes for my son's room and nothing seemed to really quite fit the bill UNTIL NOW! Hopefully, I can get this (minus the bumper since I hear those are no no's these days) because it's so beautiful and I am alllll about colors/Eric Carle!

Monday Monday Mondaaaaaay

Happy Monday, everyone!
I have to post from my phone during the week! Luckily, there's a convenient blogger app so now I don't have to struggle trying to get on the website through my phone!
So, I first just want to point out that I take public transportation every day. Some people are like "omg how can you do that!?" while others are like "heck yes, best way to go" Anyway, I've been riding the mbta since I was a wee lass and my allegiance to it is neverending. But, since I've returned to my beautiful I've noticed some things. One in particular that id like to share with you folks. The T (specifically the Red line) comes probably about every 3ish minutes. So why is it that even when people SEE that it's packed to capacity they still try to squeeze in as if there won't be another train coming right behind it? I've seen people literally have the doors CLOSE on their persons and they still refuse to just take their dumb ass off the train. Friggin hilarity.
Anyway, I just figured i'd share my observation about that. Now, on to the meat of this post!
Have you ever had the overwhelming feeling that something BIG was going to happen in the near future but, you don't know what it is specifically but it's such a strong feeling that you can't help but feel excited!? Well, that's how I feel about 2012. You may be reading this like, "wtf is this bia talkin about!? Duh something big is gonna happen, you're having a BABY!!!!" But no, that's not what I mean. Obviously I know that having a baby is going to be HUGE but something else is going to happen. All my life I've had premonitions about various things and idk if it's the latino in me or if it's my grandmother's not-so-secret Santeria dabbling but usually I'm pretty dead on with this stuff. I had that feeling about a month before I got out of the Navy and now look at me! The day I got out was the day I learned how to smile again. It was the day I learned how to be happy (sometimes for no apparent reason at all). It was and continues to be the best feeling in the world! The military is definitely not for everyone and I knew it wasn't for me the day I got off that bus December 17th, 2008. But now, I'm back home, I'm having a son, going to school and I actually get to be with my family for christmas for the first time in 3 effin years!
Today I was talking to mi hermano (for all you non spanish speakers it means "brother") Jovy Yayo about my suspicions regarding 2012. He also just recently got out of the Navy too. Now, I am a firm believer in the phrase, "everything happens for a reason" and I truly believe that there is a HUGE reason why both of us are now happily living the civilian life and there is something gargantuan in store for us. Now maybe I've been watching too much of Queen Oprah's "Life Class" or maybe I've been just soaking up the mantra of my teacher Mr. Gavan a little bit too much but I think that if you believe in positive things then positive things will happen (not without effort on your part of course. Some people forget that!) So by this time next year I hope to writing in this blog to my thousands of followers letting them know that, "if you believe it, you can achieve it!" (corny, I know. But, you won't be saying that once good things start happening once you change your mindset)
In other news, while walking home from school today I decided to stop in the MAC portion of Macy's to try out some lipstick. In the past I've attempted to pick a shade that would compliment my skintone. Needless to say, I failed miserably, gave up and simply stick to my beloved Rose Salve from Bath & Body. So today, one of the MAC associates quickly picked one out for me. He said pink would look good and I was very skeptical of course but, let him "do me up". I got a lot of compliments on it. Man, I sometimes wish (wait let me stop lying, ALL THE TIME) that I could see myself through other people's eyes. I felt super self concious with it on! But I got used to it after awhile. Maybe I'll go back and get it one day.

And, in conclusion (gosh, I didn't think id have this much to say) today I was given a present for my baby boy! Guess what it was!? A "very hungry caterpillar" stuffed animal! I'm super excited about it because I totally made a baby cocoon (somewhat like a baby swaddle) and I chose this beautiful green yarn to represent the caterpillar. It came out really well! Haven't taken pics of it but I will when I finish the hood of it. I just thought it was such a cool coincidence that I got a VHC stuffed animal to match it! Below is my very first completed cocoon (YES, the model is my baby sister's American Girl Doll). Very proud of it considering that it was my first time!

Anywho, hope everyone had a good day and I am always taking donations for my journey of homebirth (my wonderful best friend Elizabeth actually shouted me out in her blog yesterday. It made me feel so special haha)
Until next time, Ciaoooo!